P.S. I cheated on you.
P.S. I cheated on you.
Day 01- A song that makes you happy
Day 02- A song that helps you clear your head
Day 03- A song that makes you laugh
Day 04- A song that reminds you of something sad
Day 05- A song that has a new meaning to you every time you hear it
Day 06- A song you can always relate to
Day 07- A song that is your guilty pleasure
Day 08- A song you liked when you were younger
Day 09- A song that makes you want to dance
Day 10- A song that makes you cry
Day 11- A song that reminds you of summer
Day 12- A song that reminds you of your best friend
Day 13- A song you sing to in the shower
Day 14- A song you like hearing live
Day 15- A song people wouldn’t expect you to like
Day 16- A song that holds a lot of meaning to you
Day 17- A song that annoys you
Day 18- A song you have as your ring tone/want to be your ring tone
Day 19- A song you’re currently obsessed with
Day 20- A song from a new album you are waiting for to come out
Day 21- A song you want to dance to at your wedding
Day 22- A song that would be the theme song to a TV show about your life
Day 23- A song that makes you angry
Day 24- A cover song
Day 25- An acoustic song you love
Day 26- A song by your favorite band
Day 27- A song you make fun of
Day 28- A song that reminds you of your boyfriend/girlfriend
Day 29- A song currently stuck in your head
Day 30- A song that you haven’t listened to in awhile
I'm not the same person I was 5 years ago. I used to be care-free and happy go lucky all the time. I know I'm more bitter now. I've denied it but I can admit I am. I'm not a no-soul-person though lol. I hate what I've become. I still have that happy guy inside me but I feel afraid to show it at times now and I feel stripped of who I used to be. I'm not happy. I stopped writing. I stopped singing. I stopped doing things that made me happy.
When my mom died 5 years ago, I snapped, literally. I felt myself become a different person. The anger I have now, I put it out on the world because my mom was taken away from me. The one person who loved me unconditionally and who would never leave me was taken away. I still have my breaking points because of it. When I think about it hard enough, my body begins to twitch and no I'm not kidding. It hasn't happened in a long time thank god but thats my proof of how bad I took it. I still have a lot of hate because of my situation. I hold a grudge against my family for putting certain things against me because of my moms death. I'm not going to go into detail even though it might be more understandable. She died in my arms and I couldn't do anything. I know thats why I took it as hard as I did/do.
Someone told me I have an abandonment problem and I basically lost it when I heard them say it but now that I think about it, I do. I feel like a lost soul at times. I did gain some but I lost it again recently.
I'm trying my hardest to become who I used to be. I need to become that Josh again. I love myself no matter what but I miss my old self. I'm ready. I'm ready to lift myself.
This is in no way of trying to gain pity or having someone to lean on because I know I can't lean on anybody but myself.
I would have loved to see Janet's 'janet tour'. That tour was so amazing from the footage I've seen and it was probably even better in person.
2. Put your mp3 player on shuffle, what are the first three songs that play?
Danny Fernandes "Number Changed"
Michael Jackson "This Is It (Orchestra Version)"
Kelis "Trick Me"
3. What singers would you like to see do a duet? (alive or dead)
Bjork and 2Pac.
4. Your favorite group that has the worst band name?
The Spice Girls.
5. What are some fashion trends from the past you wish would come back in style?
Pretty much a ton of stuff have came back in style, I would love to see more British mod looks out there, both men and women.
If you've got it, then why not. It brings in big bucks too haha. I don't think I would do it. Right now I definitely would not, I'm not that comfortable with my body to expose it. Maybe if my body were more toned and beefy I'd go shirtless but I doubt full frontal.
2. If there were a themed photoshoot you could do, what would it be and why?
I badly want to do a boxer themed photoshoot. Again, I'd have to be toned though. I think those type of shoots are so hot. That's one of my goals. And another is in the desert, all dirty on a motorcycle, sweaty...
3. Do you enjoy having your picture taken?
I like to now. When I was a kid, I hated having my picture taken. That's the downside of not having that many photos of me as a kid. Although when I do have my picture taken, I really have to inspect it haha.
4. Who is your favourite photographer?
I don't have a favourite. I admire a ton of different peoples work.
5. Have you ever taken the typical "myspace" photo?
I have...ugh. But I think it looked ok. Did I use it, no!
New Xtina single preview.
Is there any better way to illustrate just how much misogynist hip-hop has bastardized R&B than the recent release of Sade's Soldier Of Love? Sade's style has remained more or less the same over the course of her 26-year career, but R&B has not. Her debut album Diamond Life didn't stick out like a sore thumb in comparison to other R&B/Soul music at the time, yet Soldier Of Love is almost alien within the the class of 2010.
The biggest R&B songs over the last decade are so heavily influenced by rap that they barely resemble the genre from which they stemmed. Take Usher's "Yeah", Beyonce's "Crazy In Love", or Rihanna's "Umbrella" -- three monster R&B songs from the last decade that are essentially hip-hop tracks. In an increasing number of instances, R&B hits depend on collaborations with hip-hop stars to sell. So, in exchange for the smooth sounds of yesteryear, we get a hybrid of half-singing, half-flowing lyrics over rap instrumentals.
The transformation has not been confined to technical aspects, either. R&B has transitioned from being primarily about love and affection (with a few notable exceptions) to utter debauchery. How did we go from "Love & Happiness" by Al Green and "Overjoyed" by Stevie Wonder to "Say Ahh" and "Birthday Sex"? By taking on the personality and subject matter of rap music, the romance in much R&B music has been effectively killed. No sexual stone is left unturned, no secrets remain, and the playful stories of courtship are long gone. There was a time in music history when a contemporary R&B artist would never, ever appear on a song called "What These Bitches Want?" So where exactly did things go wrong?
In the broader historical sense, Teddy Riley and the birth of New Jack Swing definitely gave the transition a kick start. But this is America, and we can't start the healing process until we find someone to blame for our problems. We need one central figure to blame for this entire R&B crime of passion, whether or not it is warranted. It has to be someone that influences the genre, sets trends, and has the respect of their peers.
It has to be R. Kelly's fault.
Sure, Beyonce is a bigger star, she's married to a rapper, and has fused her music with hip-hop as far back as her late-'90s "No, No, No" remix with Wyclef. But Beyonce's music has always been non- threatening, despite the influence of misogynist hip-hop. R. Kelly revels in being a bad boy and has been the single biggest cause of R&B's shift from romantic protagonists to "thugged out" horn dogs. He's the guy who sings about dragging women back to his room like a caveman, getting pissy drunk, and hiding midgets in the pantry. R. Kelly is great at what he does. Maybe, too good: he's given birth to a legion of young singers who grew up on his music and mimic the style he pioneered. The-Dream, Trey Songz, Jeremih,.... these guys are all running around making TP-2.com over and over again.
It's almost scary to think about what R&B will sound like in another ten years if it continues to deteriorate at the current speed. Hell, they may start passing off Lil Jon albums as soul music in 2020.
You may laugh at that now, but just wait until Trapped In The Closet 83 comes out. Then maybe we'll realize that nothing's changed for the better.